I don't like this girl...

Ha...I'm not talking about myself, but the dreadful girl named PMS.  She has me by the proverbial BALLS.  Grrr...gaaah!!!


My energy is in bed under the covers.  Ooof. There will be no gymming tonight after my rehearsal. *sigh*  This girl, Ms. PMS, is working me.  She is even making me want things that are so not good for myself and what I'm trying to accomplish.  I'm proud of myself for not falling in the trap.  I just can't. 


Plus, I put on some crops tonight and I didn't see the obnoxious stomach hang that used to make me want to cry.  I stopped wearing pants last summer because I just couldn't stand to see where my body was.  Don't get me wrong, dresses are my thing....but every now and then I would love to wear some pants and not worry about how I look.


So today I did my 55 minutes of cardio on the treadmill.  No incline, but at 3.5 speed...which amazes me.  I touched on that yesterday i think.  I remember when 2.8 would just have me at my max. YaY me!!!


Alright....off to rehearsal....


peace and blessings



Even if you fall on your face, you're still moving forward.Victor Kiam

Whaaat is happening here???

I just back in from the gym.  YaY me!!  My plan was to go, run home and change...then head to church for 11 AM service.  Didn't happen....oh.well.  I got up and piddled.  If you know southerners piddlin' is not an uncommon word.  For those who don't know...I just started turning in circles.  I ate breakfast at 7:45 and the next thing I knew it was 9:30.  LOL


Ooops.  


Antywho...I went in focused, turned on some gospel music and treadmilled.  Each day I go into the gym, I surprise myself.  I'm surprised 1. how focused I am and 2. how I won't let my brain get in my own way.  I remember a time when I would be easily distracted and would let my brain say...no, you can't do that.  Today it really hit me.  When I was in the last 3 minutes of my 45 minutes, I realized that I had been trucking on a 5.5 incline at a speed of 4.1.  Someone would say that's not serious.  It is for me.  Six months ago doing a speed of 2.5 was major...so 4.1, I accept...and it's closer to me getting on this running game.


Well, I'm off to get ready for this day and concert.  I have to run out and buy a white top to sing in.  I don't know who thinks up all white clothes...I hate them.  I think it is beautiful on others, but on me...no danke.  Maybe when I've lost my 40lbs. I'll like them...whatev. 


Remember.....Attitude is an inward thought that wiggles its way out! - Joyce Meyer


peace and blessings.....

Learning something new daily

My after gym treat....

So this morning, I got up bright and bushy tail...did a favor for my mom then hit the gym.  I'm really proud of myself because I'm focused where I won't allow anyone or thing get in the way of my new obsession with the gym.  I think it helps that the scale is going down, down, down...HALLEUUUUUU!!!  


I did 55 minutes on the elliptical, sweated like a looney and then got my daily gym treat....a cup of  coffee from Dunkin' Donuts.  The smell of a black cup of coffee just makes my damn day.  I used to drink it with lactaid, but I've gotten stingy.  I don't want to give up my points on milk.  Seriously.  I never thought I would do that.  I love a real good cup of cafe au lait...but au lait means points...so gimme the dark stuff.


Today I learned something about myself.  If I track my exercise the day before...I do it.  I feel like I'm lying if I don't do it.  Plus the thought of deleting it makes me very...disappointed in myself.  So...I go forth with my chubby self.  Tomorrow's plan is just to do 45 minutes on the treadmill.  I have a gig in the evening and I just don't want to be plastered and exhausted at 4 when the concert starts.


Another thing I learned...I realized today that I've traded my high heeled shoe obsession with tennis shoes.  I looooooove them.  Not only am I obsessed with tennis shoes...I want ORANGE tennis shoes.  It's weird, but I'm flowing with it.


Alllright...time to hit the bed so I can hit that treadmill before 11AM service at church.


Peace and Blessings......

On a Friday...

I'm here watching season 2 of Mad Men (I just got into the show.) while I'm waiting on an email from my mother. *sigh*

Today...I learned something about myself.  I don't greatly dislike sweating as much as I used to tell everyone.  *shrug*  I reversed my exercise schedule, treadmill this morning and some kickboxing this evening, and I sweated.  I sweated like a whore in church sweated....and I felt so damn amazing.  I mean AMAZING.  Where is my normal self hidden???  

Anyway, kickboxing was sooooooo good tonight.  I haven't taken a class in...uhhh...i don't know...but it was amazing.  I sweated, got my calories burned and stretched myself.  I like. A lot. Who would have thunk it?

I tracked like normal.  Ate well and made a choice between 4 Brussels cookies and a chocolate bar.  The cookies won...less points.  Who KNEW??

Anyway...I'm out..., but not without a quote...  Your body is the baggage you must carry through life.  the more excess the baggage, the shorter the trip. - Arnold H. Glasgow

peace and blessings.....

Back on the grind...

Hey...*waving*  I can't remember when I last wrote...right now, i don't care.  Just know...I'm back.


Last week after some mental back and forth, I decided that's it.  Seriously.  That's it.  This weight has GOT to go.  It would be helpful career wise and clothing wise...since I LOVE vintage fashion, but honestly, I want it gone for health reasons.  The excess baggage gotta go.  My major goal is to have 40 lbs. gone by March 2013.


So, last Thursday, I walked back into Weight.Watchers and dragged my mom with me. (She has weight to lose. The doctor told her to get on the grind as well.)  Besides my mom, my 2 dear gay friends are the only ones who know...well, and whomever reads this blog. 


How did my first week back go?  Actually it went well.  When you refocus and approach things with a different mindset, you don't see the negative.  You see the final outcome.  I know you're wondering how I did my first week... I lost 9.2lbs.  Seriously.  I was like gagging.  LOL  Did I share at the end of the meeting during celebrations?  No.


Why didn't I share?  I'm at the place now...see my product.  I'm not talking about it much, just see my hard work.  What did I do differently than any other time?  I tracked.  Every day.  I tracked.  I cooked and tracked.  Tracked and I cooked.  LOL  I didn't cook that differently...just my portion sizes.  I had tootsie rolls, cookies, cakes, fried chicken and all the rest of crap i like.  No matter what, I tracked.


On top of tracking...I exercised.  And starting this past Monday, I've been doing a 2 day grind.  I'm calling them Round 1 and Round 2.  Round 1...it is whatever I want to do...like elliptical, yoga, zumba, kickboxing, riding my bike on the green way, etc.  That's my round 1.  Round 2...well, that's my new thing...treadmill fluctuating incline, but my speed is increasing.  I want to run.  Bottom line...straight up.  That's the plan with round 2.


Well this is a mouthful and I plan to keep blogging.  Not going to say it will be daily, but it will be at least weekly.  I'm gonna leave you with this message from my WW leader today.

Peace and Blessings.....

Really a challenge....

In my last post I discussed that I was going to start the couch to 5K plan.  I'm desperate to be a runner and another good friend who is a former chubby girl and is now a jock recommended the plan to me.

So, the game plan was to start the "training" yesterday.   It didn't happen. *sigh*  I woke up majorly pmsy.  It was an awful start to an amazing LONG day.  (I ended up working from 1-9 without a break. *double sigh*)  This morning I woke up crampy and just over it all, but determined to get on this couch to 5K business.

Weeeelll...if you know the plan or don't know the plan here is a link for the treadmill.  Well, I got through about 5 of the one minute runs...and my body was like, seriously...no more.  LOL.  Seriously.  ROFL  It was quite comical, to me.  Even after the failed completed C to 5K run thingy...I ended up getting 50 minutes in on a 4.0 incline.  It all worked out.

Oh well, I will say since the last time I've attempted this plan (yea this is a take 3)...I could do more 1 minute runs without feeling like death will become me.  My knees didn't hurt.  I wasn't intimidated about tackling the plan this time. YaY me!!!

After the gym, I met up with my personal Lumberjack (my nickname for "him".) for lunch and mentioned my Couch to 5K plan...plus my desire to run a 5K.  He looks at me all serious and says..."Okay, I'm doing a 16K and in May we will run a 5K."  Whaaaaaaaaaaa????  Hunh??????  WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA??? *fainting*

Yea...so this Couch to 5K thing has become serious.  #churchpray  LOL

Grinding, Grinding....

I'm back on my grind....again.  I've been back on it for 2 weeks.  I've done 6 days a week and grinding.  LOL

So my new challenge....I want to do a Couch to 5K training thingy.  LOL  I go to the gym daily with a friend and he has a trainer who makes him do daily challenges.  I mentioned the Couch to 5K and he's down.  He can barely run a mile and he wants to impress his trainer with it.

I on the other hand am desperate to run.  Plain and simple.  I have a major gig in 9 weeks and it would be amazing if my gown was too big.  I know makes no sense, but it is what it is.  Since I have 9 weeks to learn and memorize a ton of music...I'll get my body up for a run.  YaY me!

Monday...new grind, new challenge....continuing on Weight Watchers.

(BTW...I plan on updating regularly....seriously...)