Monday a day or 2 late....

Guess what...I got my Cha.Lean Extreme yesterday.  I'm so excited that I want to do the cha-cha.  LOL  When I get in from doing the elliptical this morning, I'm going to hit it up and see what the deal is.  I'm very excited because I just want to be lean...I'm looking forward to see what will happen in 30 days.  It is a 90 days program, but at this point, I'm learning how to grasp small successes.  YaY!!!

Antywho...I see this Friend Making Monday all over the place, especially on one of the blogs that I stalk...lol....All The Weigh.

*tired eyes blinking* Just checking in....

Well a couple of days have gone by....ooo...but things are going strong.  I'm having an impatient moment.  I'm sick of waiting on my Cha.lean Ex.treme.  Sick honey...just sick. LOL  I'm ready to get on my with leaning out my body.  Just pumped. *tapping my foot waiting on my package.*

Other than that, I've been tracking, exercising and i'm seeing major changes.  As of this morning (you know that deadly morning scale weighing), I'm down 15.  Can't complain.  I press on....

.....and a word for the day.....

No Complaints...

Today was weigh in day...I did good.  I lost 6.0lbs.  This is really good because this is the 6 pounds that I had gained last week during the dreadful PMS.  I'll take it.


Right now I'm here blogging while I'm waiting on part of my dinner.  On this blazing a$$ day...I have my oven on, waiting on some sweet potato fries.  Bwwwaaah at me.  Yes on a 97 degree day in NYC my oven is on...for some damn sweet potato fries.  It's what I want and what I'm gonna get.  The more I type this, the more asinine this sounds.  Oven...fries...97 degree day. *shrug*  I planned for it yesterday and that's what I want.


Does anyone else who is on the struggle to lose weight, think about food constantly?  I do.  I'm always planning ahead, which I've been told is a good thing, and waiting for that next bite on my tongue.  I personally find it obsessive and I need to focus my attention on something else....but I can't...it's always about food or music or sports.  I mean as I type, I'm watching Chop.ped on Food network. Gaaaah!!!


Oh well, I'm looking forward to some gymming tomorrow....I'm tackling the couch to 5K...and then the NY Phil with my mom.


peace and blessings......

I'm learning

Yesterday was really a rough day mentally and emotionally.  I can't remember if I stated that my friend's husband died yesterday morning.  He was about 36/37...had pneumonia.  They just had a baby in January.  It just really got me.  My friend has been through so much.  She lost her mother recently to ALS, her dad 2 or 3 years ago to cancer,  her grandmother's recently....yea a lot.  When I read that the hubby passed....it was like someone had kicked me in the stomach.  I just wanted to eat all day long.  I never made the gym.  I spent the day practicing and trying to wrap my mind about how my friend was handling all of this.


By 10 after being filled with music and a few episodes of Mad Men, I remembered I had chocolate in the house.  *bad news*  I ate about 8 small pieces of a Mil.ka Strawberry Bar that I love.  *sigh*  Oh well, when I hit the scale this morning....yea, i hit it daily to keep me in check...it said I was down 2 more pounds.  *whew*


I keep pressing on.


So....what am i learning?  i'm learning the importance of making time to be prepared.  does that make sense?  well today i went to bj's and stocked up.  i got some collard greens, even though i wanted kale, some salad fixings, black bean burgers, sweet potato fries (my personal crack) and some chicken breasts.  if it is here...i have NO excuses.  i feel focused and ready.  right now as i type...i'm cooking my collards so they will be ready for tomorrow.  


yay me...i'm learning....i really am.


a little quote from my zumba teacher before i go..."to accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe" Anatole France  


i'm believing....


peace and blessings.....

Being prepared

Last week I realized that one of the reasons for my weight gain was 1. I barely cooked one meal and 2. I didn't track/plan ahead.  I just spent the last quarter of the He.at OKC game prepping for tomorrow.

In my mom's neighborhood, which is about 5 blocks east of me, they have a fabulous farmer's market on Saturday and I took advantage.  I got some bok choy, broccoli rabe, red lettuce and a couple of other things.  I really love vegetables.  I think they are the best things ever.  Fruit...gaaah.  I'm working on my fruit habit, but veggies are my love.  LOL

I'm so looking forward to eating lunch tomorrow. Yes, that's the plight of being a chubby girl.  I love food.  I look forward to eating all the time.  Oh well, I'm working on that as well.  

Antywho...I will say I'm also looking forward to hitting up the gym tomorrow.  My plan was to go today, but you know the saying..."You plan and God laughs."  *shrug*  No matter my lack of exercise, I ate well and within my points...so no complaints here.

Off to bed...gym in the morning and tackling some Bellini and Rossini.  Ahhh....

peace and blessings.....

A little more determined...

That's the quote my mom said to me today after she said how proud she was of me and my gym hustle.  Lemme tell you this new groove is not easy, but I'm feeling better and more determined.

I can't tell you how many times I've tried to tackle this weight issue.  That has probably been the same cry with a lot of people, but this time I'm more determined.  More focused.  More on the ball.  Whatever it is...this extra chub is coming off. *stomping my foot*

Plus, I had perfect incentive today to keep going.  I went into a store and bought some crops a size smaller....without trying them on.  I was like that former number won't happen again.  I got home and thought, well maybe i should  try them on.  Every pair fit...without struggle to zip the zipper or button the button.  YaY me.

And the struggle continues another day.

...peace and blessings....

Gaaah....

So the other day I mentioned how the PMS monster was taking over my life.  Well, it did quite nicely and I gained 7.2 pounds this week.  LOL Gaaah.  I knew this would happen.  On top of the PMS monster, I'm suffering from the tightest hamstring pain...it makes me want to hit a wall.


Anyway, this week I learned a couple of things.  First, I've got to be diligent about tracking. Second, I've got to cook my own food.  Less salt, less worry and healthier eating.  Ahh...this weight loss thing is all about learning how to function and get it done.


Lastly, I had to wear white for a concert that I was singing in.  I detest wearing white clothes.  They just...well, when you're a chubby girl, make you look much wider.  Egads.  The first thing my mom said after the concert..."Luvie, you're getting narrow.  I can even see your hard work."  Praise Jesus....


Okay...off to watch the rest of this He.at vs. OKC game.  


peace and blessings.....

I don't like this girl...

Ha...I'm not talking about myself, but the dreadful girl named PMS.  She has me by the proverbial BALLS.  Grrr...gaaah!!!


My energy is in bed under the covers.  Ooof. There will be no gymming tonight after my rehearsal. *sigh*  This girl, Ms. PMS, is working me.  She is even making me want things that are so not good for myself and what I'm trying to accomplish.  I'm proud of myself for not falling in the trap.  I just can't. 


Plus, I put on some crops tonight and I didn't see the obnoxious stomach hang that used to make me want to cry.  I stopped wearing pants last summer because I just couldn't stand to see where my body was.  Don't get me wrong, dresses are my thing....but every now and then I would love to wear some pants and not worry about how I look.


So today I did my 55 minutes of cardio on the treadmill.  No incline, but at 3.5 speed...which amazes me.  I touched on that yesterday i think.  I remember when 2.8 would just have me at my max. YaY me!!!


Alright....off to rehearsal....


peace and blessings



Even if you fall on your face, you're still moving forward.Victor Kiam

Whaaat is happening here???

I just back in from the gym.  YaY me!!  My plan was to go, run home and change...then head to church for 11 AM service.  Didn't happen....oh.well.  I got up and piddled.  If you know southerners piddlin' is not an uncommon word.  For those who don't know...I just started turning in circles.  I ate breakfast at 7:45 and the next thing I knew it was 9:30.  LOL


Ooops.  


Antywho...I went in focused, turned on some gospel music and treadmilled.  Each day I go into the gym, I surprise myself.  I'm surprised 1. how focused I am and 2. how I won't let my brain get in my own way.  I remember a time when I would be easily distracted and would let my brain say...no, you can't do that.  Today it really hit me.  When I was in the last 3 minutes of my 45 minutes, I realized that I had been trucking on a 5.5 incline at a speed of 4.1.  Someone would say that's not serious.  It is for me.  Six months ago doing a speed of 2.5 was major...so 4.1, I accept...and it's closer to me getting on this running game.


Well, I'm off to get ready for this day and concert.  I have to run out and buy a white top to sing in.  I don't know who thinks up all white clothes...I hate them.  I think it is beautiful on others, but on me...no danke.  Maybe when I've lost my 40lbs. I'll like them...whatev. 


Remember.....Attitude is an inward thought that wiggles its way out! - Joyce Meyer


peace and blessings.....

Learning something new daily

My after gym treat....

So this morning, I got up bright and bushy tail...did a favor for my mom then hit the gym.  I'm really proud of myself because I'm focused where I won't allow anyone or thing get in the way of my new obsession with the gym.  I think it helps that the scale is going down, down, down...HALLEUUUUUU!!!  


I did 55 minutes on the elliptical, sweated like a looney and then got my daily gym treat....a cup of  coffee from Dunkin' Donuts.  The smell of a black cup of coffee just makes my damn day.  I used to drink it with lactaid, but I've gotten stingy.  I don't want to give up my points on milk.  Seriously.  I never thought I would do that.  I love a real good cup of cafe au lait...but au lait means points...so gimme the dark stuff.


Today I learned something about myself.  If I track my exercise the day before...I do it.  I feel like I'm lying if I don't do it.  Plus the thought of deleting it makes me very...disappointed in myself.  So...I go forth with my chubby self.  Tomorrow's plan is just to do 45 minutes on the treadmill.  I have a gig in the evening and I just don't want to be plastered and exhausted at 4 when the concert starts.


Another thing I learned...I realized today that I've traded my high heeled shoe obsession with tennis shoes.  I looooooove them.  Not only am I obsessed with tennis shoes...I want ORANGE tennis shoes.  It's weird, but I'm flowing with it.


Alllright...time to hit the bed so I can hit that treadmill before 11AM service at church.


Peace and Blessings......

On a Friday...

I'm here watching season 2 of Mad Men (I just got into the show.) while I'm waiting on an email from my mother. *sigh*

Today...I learned something about myself.  I don't greatly dislike sweating as much as I used to tell everyone.  *shrug*  I reversed my exercise schedule, treadmill this morning and some kickboxing this evening, and I sweated.  I sweated like a whore in church sweated....and I felt so damn amazing.  I mean AMAZING.  Where is my normal self hidden???  

Anyway, kickboxing was sooooooo good tonight.  I haven't taken a class in...uhhh...i don't know...but it was amazing.  I sweated, got my calories burned and stretched myself.  I like. A lot. Who would have thunk it?

I tracked like normal.  Ate well and made a choice between 4 Brussels cookies and a chocolate bar.  The cookies won...less points.  Who KNEW??

Anyway...I'm out..., but not without a quote...  Your body is the baggage you must carry through life.  the more excess the baggage, the shorter the trip. - Arnold H. Glasgow

peace and blessings.....

Back on the grind...

Hey...*waving*  I can't remember when I last wrote...right now, i don't care.  Just know...I'm back.


Last week after some mental back and forth, I decided that's it.  Seriously.  That's it.  This weight has GOT to go.  It would be helpful career wise and clothing wise...since I LOVE vintage fashion, but honestly, I want it gone for health reasons.  The excess baggage gotta go.  My major goal is to have 40 lbs. gone by March 2013.


So, last Thursday, I walked back into Weight.Watchers and dragged my mom with me. (She has weight to lose. The doctor told her to get on the grind as well.)  Besides my mom, my 2 dear gay friends are the only ones who know...well, and whomever reads this blog. 


How did my first week back go?  Actually it went well.  When you refocus and approach things with a different mindset, you don't see the negative.  You see the final outcome.  I know you're wondering how I did my first week... I lost 9.2lbs.  Seriously.  I was like gagging.  LOL  Did I share at the end of the meeting during celebrations?  No.


Why didn't I share?  I'm at the place now...see my product.  I'm not talking about it much, just see my hard work.  What did I do differently than any other time?  I tracked.  Every day.  I tracked.  I cooked and tracked.  Tracked and I cooked.  LOL  I didn't cook that differently...just my portion sizes.  I had tootsie rolls, cookies, cakes, fried chicken and all the rest of crap i like.  No matter what, I tracked.


On top of tracking...I exercised.  And starting this past Monday, I've been doing a 2 day grind.  I'm calling them Round 1 and Round 2.  Round 1...it is whatever I want to do...like elliptical, yoga, zumba, kickboxing, riding my bike on the green way, etc.  That's my round 1.  Round 2...well, that's my new thing...treadmill fluctuating incline, but my speed is increasing.  I want to run.  Bottom line...straight up.  That's the plan with round 2.


Well this is a mouthful and I plan to keep blogging.  Not going to say it will be daily, but it will be at least weekly.  I'm gonna leave you with this message from my WW leader today.

Peace and Blessings.....